Bangkok - Down to the South

 Our arrival in Bangkok gave us time to run some errands needed for India, first of all we needed some medication and most importantly we realized that the suitcase we had sent back from Bali was an error so we went out to get another one. Other then shopping Bangkok holds an amount of beauties that are incomparable.
We went for a visit of the royal palace and a few temples which are really worth the detour.
People are friendly wherever you go, food is amazing.
Thailand being right in the middle of our trip, I wonder if that truely is the cause, has been pretty heavy on us.
Actually I don't think it's Thailand but I think something has shifted within the traveling mode.
We are lazy don't feel like looking up much are tired of packing and unpacking. We are all exhausted actually and as cynical as it may seem to many we need a holiday.
We decided to go south and locked up in a beautiful resort on a beautiful island.
I suppose rest and dolce far niente on a beach is what we needed. However it seems that even there everything is going a bit haywire.
The place we are at although supposedly a top hotel offers a public beach; flattened by tourists all day, the air-con has been noisy and woke us up four nights in a row, service is poor and I am tired and angry at the money I am spending on this place while a bungalow by the beach would have been better cheaper and definitely without expectations.
The kids have been really hard to handle lately and Julian in constant imitation of his brother hasn't been tender at all. I suppose the fact of being twenty four seven together is slowly taking it's toll and that a trip cannot be all honey and cream all the time. I realize my worries are petty but it does have an impact on our well being. On a personal level I feel we all have to get through this, individually together and this definitely is one of the self/family confrontations that we anticipated before we left.
No major problems really just growing pains in order to evolve to a strengthened relationship with each other.
I also believe that the  confrontation with Asia also plays a factor. We are the strangers here, there is no hiding it either. On the contrary to European countries it is clear and accepted here to discriminate the non Asian, the farang. A farang pays more then a Thai if the later pays at all to enter a public temple, garden, zoo etc.
The difference in culture, language, thought, reaction, feeling, view on things is amazing.
You cannot think as you think in Europe, things are not resolved the way they are resolved where we're from. The anchor point towards our frame of mind, comparable to the previous continents we've been, Norh America and Australia is different. In that way we are drawn yet again a little further away from what we know and deeper into the middle of the sea where little anchoring is left but a constant flow of spirituality, and even that is constantly evolving and changing as we encounter new personal challenges on a daily basis.
Thailand hasn't been our favorite cup of tea it is cheap,the weather is good, the food amazing, the Thai people very friendly but for some reason we don't seem to find a lot of affinity with this country, I cannot pin point exactly what it is yet, is it Thailand or most probably is it us?!

To complete the circle with the beginning of this post, maybe we are all longing for a more structured living after these six months of adventure.